Why Dealing With Burnout Through Your Unwanted Sexual Behaviours Doesn’t Work, And What You Can Do About It

We all experience burnout and become overextended at times, and in those moments, the most important thing we want is to have a break. By engaging in their unwanted sexual behaviors as a way of relief, those struggling find themselves feeling even more depleted, more guilty, and more tired instead of feeling recharged.

The reason why they cannot fully recharge is because they don’t know how to discern or how to categorize their unwanted sexual behaviors.

Brother Suhail, a coaching client of mine, turned to pornography and masturbation to deal with the feelings of exhaustion and burnout he felt at school. This was a low hassle, “convenient” outlet for him, because it was easily accessible at a click of a button. It gave him what he thought was “rapid relief” from the stress and pressure he felt at school.

But not without very telling consequences:

“The short term effect of sexually acting out is that I feel incredibly exhausted trying to get the temporary pleasure, but then it really has more of a long term effect. It takes me at least 7 days to sober up again.” – Brother Suhail.

It is incredible how the consequences of acting out resulted in him losing 7 days of his entire life.

Brother Suhail came to a realization that in those 7 days, he could not look at himself in the mirror without thinking he was ugly, and this translated into him having a hard time communicating to others as well as a severe lack of trust in himself and his abilities. Spiritually, he felt a blackening of his heart.

Since brother Suhail was having all these unpleasant thoughts and feelings about himself, there was no way he could focus effectively on the task at hand which was his school work. Instead of feeling rejuvenated, the burnout he initially felt only increased as a result of sexually acting out, and he was left feeling depleted.

I asked him what he tangibly lost in those 7 days of trying to rebound back up. Brother Suhail reflected on an unpleasant memory from a time at school, that further drove his acting out in perspective for him:

“In the final exam, I was sitting down there, and it was really intense. My face turned red, it was overwhelming, like I can’t do this. I just kept going through the questions and I had no idea for basically all the answers.

I remember in the exam how bad I felt. All those times I underperformed it finally hit home then. Right at that moment I remembered every single time I acted out, I remembered all the opportunities that I lost, so reality struck right at that moment.” – Brother Suhail.

The sum effect of those “convenient recharges” of acting out resulted in brother Suhail failing the class with a D+.

So the question is, why would anyone want to put him or herself in the risk of academic failure?

“Engaging in your unwanted behaviours is akin to having fast food. At first, it seems pleasurable, or even horrible to some , but the end result is the same: It makes you feel horrible.”

Although Brother Suhail had every intention of refueling so he could do well at school, the reality is that he failed to recognize that although his behaviours may have felt good in the moment, they were not good in nature, meaning his behaviours will not nurture or restore him back to health. Any gains he thought he was going to be have would at most be momentary.

Part of the reason why brother Suhail could not recharge was because for so long he was accustomed to picking a behaviour that always ended up depleting him, even though it gave him that momentary pleasure.

Generally, any behaviour can be categorized under the following:

1. They feel good right now, and are good for you later.
2. They feel bad for you now, but are good for you later
3. They feel good right now, but are bad for you later
4. They feel bad for you now, and they are bad for you later.

Your unwanted sexual behaviours fit under the third category. Through them, you are seeking temporary benefit or momentary pleasure but in the grand scheme of things, they hurt you in the long run because they deplete you and affect other areas of your life.

They can also fit under the fourth category. The feelings of shame, worthlessness and despair often come immediately after acting out, depleting you even further where you are unable to live in the present.

The analogy I like to use is eating fast food. Engaging in your unwanted behaviours is akin to having fast food. At first, it seems pleasurable, or even horrible to some , but the end result is the same: It makes you feel horrible.

Generally behaviours that have long term benefit bring you the most satisfaction and fulfillment in life. These are wholesome activities that although may not necessarily feel good in the moment, their benefits transcend the short term pain.

To deal effectively with the burnout you face without depleting or sabotaging yourself, focus on making choices that bring you genuine and lasting energy in sha Allah.

About the author

Zeyad Ramadan

Zeyad Ramadan is the founder of Purify Your Gaze. Through his leadership, Purify Your Gaze has served as the personal recovery guide for thousands of Muslims coming from over 35 different countries around the world in the various stages of their healing journey and has provided support to its members through its addiction recovery tools, its workshops, and personal 1-1 coaching. Zeyad has successfully lead workshops and delivered talks dealing with sexual intimacy, addiction recovery, embracing true gender roles, and spirituality. He currently lives with his wife and four kids in Orange County, California. Connect with Zeyad on Facebook and Twitter.